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About Me

INFJ, Male

Sophmore (highschool), Dream job is a forensics engineer (or really anything in forensics), and I collect a ton of dvds. I really like the shows peacemaker, psych, breaking bad, hannibal, wwdits. I like the movies Monkey man, the iron giant, holes, juno, mid90s, mysterious skin, fight club, se7en, american beauty, donnie darko, and taxi driver. The music I like is tyler, the creator, nirvana, the front bottoms, car seat headrest, weezer.

Characters I get compared to: Rarity(MLP), Will Graham (from the hannibal show), Alvin (Alvin and the Chipmunks), Megamind, Alex the Lion (Madagascar), Grunkle Stan and Ford (Gravity Falls).

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Blog Posts

These are the posts about my personal life so pretty much just anything that I think would be cool to remember.

If you scroll down some more you can find the movie reviews.

Breakig bad

Personal Post, Nov 19, 2024

hes so me core (I got this from pinterest)

Christmas

Personal Post, Nov 14, 2024

I didn't end up regauging my ears because they got super angry cause I went up to quick but now they went back to thier normal size and I can put earings in without them getting mad which I haven't been able to do in like 3 months. I'm kinda stressed for the upcoming holidays, mainly christmas, because I have to spend that time in other families house (who don't know I'm transgender) which sucks since I don't have access to any of my normal stuff and I have to leave my cat at home (its only an hour away) because they have like 6 dogs, some of which are massive. Its not that I don't like all dogs but I am most def a cat person and don't ever want my own dog (unless its a roomate or somethings dog and I don't have to take care of it). Anyways, I mainly put this just to talk about christmas so, starting that now. Theres this youtuber I really like called Jvscholz (i think thats how you say it) and he got this phone like two years ago and it was this tiny andriod phone called a unihertz jelly 2 and I wanted it soo bad but now they made a second one and I wanted that for christmas but its 200 dollars and I don't know if it matches my phone service or how to do any of that so I might not end up getting it. Another thing on my list though is a laptop because one of my friends has one and they play minecraft java on it and I absolutely love minecraft and would love to play it but I wouldn't be able to do it with them since I just have bedrock. I've wanted a computer for a while though and never thought it was an obtainable goal since I thought they were all thousands of dollars but now I found out that my parents would be willing to buy me a not so expensive one that can play minecraft, allow me to do coding, and let me listen to mp3s!! I think that would be so cool and I want it soo bad!!!

11/7/24

Personal Post

Schools been really on and off for me lately. I haven't enjoyed it as much as I used to think I did if that makes sense. I think I'm growing more as a person right now/having some major mental growth and development and I hate when this stuff happens. I shaved majority of my head except the top and tried to re-gauge my ears. It just kinda feels like I'm going crazy with worry.

Election Results 2024

Personal Post, Nov 6, 2024

I won't say that I didn't see this coming because from the start I think it was pretty obvious what direction it was going to go to. It's still unfortunate the results in my opinion. As a trans kid in America I think that this is gonna make things a lot more difficult for me in the upcoming years especially if me and my family decide it's time for me to go on testosterone. It's hard to just think of myself during this though because other people in my community must be going through it right now. It's so important to talk to people and to try to get the help you need. I just know trump becoming president is going to increase the trans teen suicide rate (and suicide rate in general) and it's just like a sinking feeling that theres nothing I can do about that other than help the people I know and to try and give support to everyone I can. I just really wish it didn't end up this way and some miracle happened but obviously that's not what happened. I feel so incredibly bad for trans kids with unsupportive parents right now. Just everyone know that they're loved, this is only for four years and that's gonna fly by and before you know it everything will be okay.

Not that many people will read this but still, heres the link to The Trevor Project where you can find the suicide hotline, counselors, more people in the community, and much more. Just know that there is help out there and people care about you.

My Thoughts on Politics

Personal Post, Nov 4, 2024

Politics suck, everybody sucks, voting sucks, the electoral college sucks, every state sucks, you suck. No cause seriously this is bullshit why'd we come up with this system in the first place. We need better structure just fucking throw it all away and redo it please. (I'm extremely exausted and bored right now cause I'm in math class)

11/4/24

Personal Post

It's a day before election day and I feel really disoriented and just out of it. I'm scared that these will be my final few days that I have freedom over myself. I know theres a big chance of the other team winning as well but the fear of the orange man winning is still prominent and probably will stay that way until the elections over. Thats how it was the last few years, the only difference is that I know more now. Other than that, a lot of my friends have been breaking up with their partners, which the people who have, their boyfriends were terrible and I'm very glad that they are no longer together. The guy one of my friends were with is a really creepy guy and today during lunch he was standing directly behind me listening to everything we were saying. This guy also beat me up on numerous occasions and says he has no recolection of it so that's another red flag. I feel really different from people. There's always a feeling I have that no matter how close I get to someone or no matter how much I relate to them I'm still going to be alone with my experiences and thoughts. There's no one that will fully understand everything I've gone through, and I'll never understand the full extent of what other people have gone through. Kinda crazy lowkey.

Homecoming 24'

Buddies Adventure, Oct 14, 2024

Finally had my second homecoming, it was actually pretty fun. I'm an extreme introvert and struggle with big events. I tend to go on autopilot (in which I get extremely annoying out of fear of being awkward) which makes me really uncomfortable and obviously I end up regreting some of the things I say or do when I get like that. Anyways, me and a very large group of friends (12 to take photos and 10 going out to eat) went to a relatively local nature park to take photos. There were so many parents there that it looked like they were paparazi taking photos of celebrities. Everyone looked so nice though and the photos came out really good. After that, we went to olive garden to eat before the dance. By the time we got there, I wasn't feeling too well since we had such a massive group of people. It was still fun though, the food was really good, the waiter was amazing and really nice, and I had a great time. There was some problems when it came to the check and I ended up having to pay double. After that, we went to the dance and at that point I was kind of shut down but we got in and it was the most anticlimactic event I've ever walked into. Nobody was dancing, the music was blaring and everyone was off in their own little groups and I bursted out laughing. We ended up dancing for a while but it was kind of awkward and boring until they started playing songs that people actually dance to like murder on the dancefloor, hot to go, fien, and more. I ended up having so much fun and talked to a lot of people but I felt to sick so I ended up going home early (very glad that I did). The local icecream shop just got a new van and ended up parking in front for people who were leaving so I got a coffee milkshake and left. It was overall really fun and I really enjoyed it but I'm done with big events for a while.

Nosferatu Synched to Radiohead

Buddies Adventure, Oct 10, 2024

Me, my mom, and my two friends went to go see the 1922 movie Nosferatu synched to radioheads Kid A and Amnesiac. (I'm the one in the black Jack Daniels Hoodie)

This was genuinley such an amazing experience and it was so cool to see all the people who were also interested in it since a lot of them were also alternative. The movie was also really good which I wasnt expecting. I know it really shaped future films but it really deserves the credit it was amazing.

Switching from Spotify to Pandora

Personal Post, Oct 5, 2024

Recently, especially after getting really into neocities and the personal web, I've heard a lot of discourse surrounding spotify and their use of not only ai but poor business practices and they're just overall bad way of listening to new music. I've had a problem when trying to find new music that really bothers me. Whenever I tried to find new music, I would get met with songs that I had heard before from tiktok. I try to get off tiktok as much as possible and the songs get very repetative. Literally any time I listen to a song I like that happens to be trending on tiktok at the time, It ends up playing more songs that people who use tiktok listen to, and I'm just like "I'm not trying to listen to these tiktok songs why do they keep showing them to me even though I'm purposley avoiding them??". It's extremely annoying so I decided to make a change.

Pandora still has some problems, like it's add problem and the music selection, but overall it has been so much better than my use of spotify. I have already heard so many new songs that I've never heard before that I really like. I'm so excited to keep using it and listening to more music. The overall layout is so much easier for me to use too and I like it a lot. It doesn't have as much customization when it comes to playlists but I really like their use of stations because you can still make playlists with the songs you like (if you watch an add beforehand but still) and it still works pretty much the same. This mainly only applies to me but I use a school chromebook the most for listening to music since phones are banned and I'm not allowed to wear bluetooth headphones (and until I get a new phone I'm stuck with having no headphone jack) which is difficult to work with since the school chromebook pretty much bans anything it sees as video entertainment which spotify added podcasts or whatever that allows you to put videos in. Until recently they had youtube banned which sucked since then there was no way to listen to music before I heard of pandora. Now that I have pandora, after my teacher was the one who mentioned it to me, I created my own account at home and started to listen to music and it has been an awesome experience. I just hope that I don't hear pandora doing shtty things cause then that would suuuuck.

I also recently have been collecting dvds and more cds which I didn't already have a collection of. I also found some of my moms old cds from when she was a teenager and I struck gold. I found the donnie darko soundtrack, the rocky horror soundtrack, nirvana albums, nimrod albums, pearl jam, radiohead, pixies, limp biskit, and more. It was so awesome and I burned a bunch of them onto my mp3 player and my flash drive that I trade with my friend. It's so awesome but it took me like 3 hours to figure out what was the best way to burn the cd into mp3. But now I have a bunch of ways to listen to music and I'm super excited to burn more cds. My friend is also super excited because they also have a lot of cds they'd like to burn and now that I learned how to do it they can too.

10/9/24

Personal Post

I got the stuff I need for homecoming which is great and it's coming tomorrow (friday). I'm currently sitting in class wearing literally the shortest and thinnest shorts I have not realizing this morning that it's gonna be the coldest day of the year so far. My mom dropped off some pants for me to wear on her way to work so thank god. My school's been out of Coke which is what I drink the most and I've been testing out other drinks they have and the one I got today is this grape powerade and it tastes terrible (I only took one sip). I'm gonna see if any of my friends wants it but if not I'm just gonna put it in my fridge at home and it'll be gone eventually. Since my concussion, I haven't been able to retain any new knowledge other than like computer, cd, and coding stuff which makes it difficult to do tests and stuff. The marching band performs in two days for homecoming and I'm super excited because we get to perform in the parade which hasn't been done in a long time since its been almost a decade since my school has has a fully filled and active color guard. Super excited.

10/7/24

Personal Post

This is my first time making an actual blog post about myself and like my life. I recently had a concussion (still kinda do) and it's made me spend an a*sload of time out of colorguard which really sucks. I absolutely love colorguard and the people on it. I think it's so cool and I'm so happy that I get to participate. Last week I took a few days off of school because my concussion got worse and I got sick which obviously didn't help my concussion. So I've pretty much been just laying in my house doing nothing (obviously I did do some stuff to keep up with work and everything) but I'm super behind now and it's super confussing because I'm still obviously not better but if I keep staying behind in my classes I'll never catch up. I'm mainly worried about colorguard though because I'm also behind in that and I don't want to get kicked off the team. I should be getting cleared for my concussion this Friday but it's at 8am and ITS LITERALLY HOCO DAY AND A HALF DAY. Like I'm already gonna be missing school work but then I find out I'm missing the pep rally and who knows what else.

I also got increased on my new medication and it has not helped at alllll. Like it's for focus and stuff cause I have adhd but all I've been able to focus on is this stupid website. I have work I could be submitting right now but I'm just typing all this out instead. I'm gonna go submit some stuff.

Movie and Show Posts

This is where I post my movie and show reviews. I absolutely love media and cinematography so I write a lot of reviews about things I like.

Peacemaker

Show Review, Oct 7, 2024

I LOVE THIS SHOW SO MUCH AHH

No cause seriously this show is so funny and has one of the things I value most in shows, having good repersentation that doesn't feel super forced. A lot of media now a days has repersentation just for the woke points of putting repersentation. I know this sounds like some crazy right winged stuff I'm projecting but it is something I'm genuinley concerned with. The repersentation in this show is actually pretty good and it's not something super crazy or in your face. Like you could genuinley consider majority of the characters queer with some of the things they mention in the show. Like it just doesn't seem to be that big of a deal in this show whether or not someones queer. Peacemaker's obviously going to say some stuff about this cause of who he is but it's not anything out of character or something random just for woke points yet again. If you're gonna put repersentation in a show, this is the way to do it. Like put some gay people in but make it make sense, make it not that big of a deal. Most queer people I know being queer isn't even a big part of them. It's certainly not a big part of me, it's only a small part of what makes me, me. This show's just so funny and it has the same humor I do which makes things so much better. I just love this show so much and it's my absolute favorite.

Breaking Bad

Show Review, Oct 7, 2024

This show is so good so far. I've been watching for a while and I'm currently on season 3 of the original show, Breaking Bad. I'm gonna watch the movie and Better Call Saul. Its so good and all the symbolism is absolutely insane. I love the differences in the color of Walts clothes showing how evil he's feeling. All of the characters are so good and so complex and the show makes you empathize with antagonist characters.

This show is so farting good and I love it so much. I get why people obsess over it the way they do (even though some of the obsessions for certain characters I've seen seem a little overboard) but honestly I get it like this show is so good and so are all the characters. I'm a real geek when it comes to acting and cinematography so when I watched this movie I was just so giddy with how many cool camera shots and transitions they do. Some of the acting does get a little weird sometimes but Walt's actor does such a good job portraying the emotions in each episode. Like they're all such good actors that sometimes you forget that these people aren't actually drug dealers and insane people.

Mysterious Skin

Movie Review, Sep 30, 2024

This was on my watch list for a very long time and for good reason. This movie is so incredibly good with an amazing story to tell and such great acting. It’s so sad but so beautiful and such a crazy story about growth and acceptance and how different people can react to the same situations . This movie genuinely makes me want to scream, cry, throw up, and never leave my room again. It’s one of the most powerful stories I’ve ever watched and literally gut wrenching. I don’t think I’ll ever find another movie that moved me and altered my mental state as much as this one did. Brian’s also so incredibly relatable but in a slightly less severe way (I have no where near the amount of memory loss but it’s still pretty bad). This will forever be held dear in my heart.

SLC Punk

Movie Review, Sep 30, 2024

This is by far the best punk movie I've ever seen. It's such a good movie and has such a good premise its just great. When I first watched this a few years back it genuinley changed my life. It's so beautiful in so many ways and I don't think any other movie I ever watch (other than holes of course) will ever encapsulate the feeling I felt watching this for the first time. I think ever alternative person should watch this, especially the people who are really into fast fashion right now because it's such a good representation that you don't have to look the part to be the part. One of my favorite characters of all time is Mike because he doesn't look punk but he's the realest punk in the entire movie. Like you could call every single one of the other characters posers compared to Mike, and he looks like a weirdo nerd! Its just such a good movie and I feel the world would be a much better place if everyone did.

Fight Club

Movie Review, Sep 20, 2024

This movies really farting good. It’s definitely one of my favorites. A lot of people associate it with incels but they gotta realize it’s making fun of the way these men think. You’re not supposed to look up to them or think they’re cool. You’re supposed to think they’re losers and not go down their path. It’s the same with American Psycho and Wolf of Wall Street. You aren’t supposed to like them. They’re bad people. They go down these horrible paths you’re not supposed to look at and say “that’s peak masculinity right there”, that is literally missing the whole point of the movie. Get your mind out your booty and use your brain.

American Beauty

Movie Review, Sep 20, 2024

This movie was freaky man. It’s been a few weeks since I watched it, actually maybe a month or two. But it’s still one of the best movies I’ve seen in a while. I originally wanted to watch it because it has one of my favorite actresses, Thora Birch, and I haven’t seen any movies from her other than like a few I’ve watched since I was a kid like hocus pocus or monkey trouble. I think this movies actually really good. Other than the creepy main character who’s whole deal is to take back his life by doing inappropriate things with his daughters minor best friend, I think this movie had a lot of good lessons and a very very interesting plot line. This is not one I would watch with anyone other than like extremely close friends because it’s just so weird and kind of uncomfortable. I love a lot of the characters and I think that the overall idea of the movie was really good and I love the end where you don’t really know who killed him and you think it’s gonna be his wife but it ends up being the insane neighbor, absolutely amazing. I would definitely watch this movie again but with more mental preparation with how GROSS it can be sometimes. I just really hate the main guy in this, his whole spiel is just nasty. I mean I guess I understand some parts like his unhappiness with his marriage and job and all that but the way he did everything was so poor and just ewww. The guy the daughter ends up dating though was pretty cool even though he’s also very creepy. I liked his plot and his mom. I also really liked how he filmed everything and his vibe (???). I definitely feel weird about him though cause of the end scene but he’s better than most characters in this movie. I DESPISED the friend and pretty much everything about her. She didn’t deserve a lot of the stuff that happened to her but at the same time she was just so mean and rude to everybody and was so creepy with the dad. I also just hate the wife and how she cheated on the main dude. Like that was such a weird part of the movie and I just didn’t like it at all. I think it played in really well with the movie though. The cinematography was also absolutely fire and I loved all of the camera angles and ideas, obviously the main one being when she’s on the ceiling with the roses (even though that scene was gross). Overall, I think this movies really great and even though some parts can get uncomfortable it’s still a movie I’d recommend to people and I think it will stay as one of my favorites for a good while.

Donnie Darko

Movie Review, Oct 16, 2023

Let's set the scene: the movie *Donnie Darko,* made October 26th, 2001, follows the protagonist Donnie as he travels through an alternate universe. Donnie has had a history of mental illness and has trouble with sleepwalking. One night, he sleepwalks out of his house and finds a giant demonic rabbit that tells him the world will end in 28 days. When Donnie awakes and returns to his home, he finds that a jet engine has fallen directly onto his bedroom where he would have been sleeping. Donnie goes through these next 28 days figuring out how the world ends and how he can prevent it.

This movie was engrossing, and I had a fun time watching it. I highly recommend this movie to anyone who enjoys the psychological horror genre. *Donnie Darko* is one of my favorite movies because of how many parts can be discovered by rewatching the movie. It is similar to the psychological thriller *Shutter Island* because viewers can unearth new aspects and "revealed" spoilers that make sense in the context of the movie with every rewatch. It is like watching the film for the very first time again. *Donnie Darko* is a very confusing film, thus making it much more engaging and entertaining to watch. When the movie ends, one can see everything come full circle and how things start to make sense. There were a lot of twists and turns in this movie, which made it difficult to watch for the first time, but watching it again helps the story unfold fully. *Donnie Darko* is overall one of the best movies I have ever seen, and I highly recommend this movie to anyone.